notes on haunted universe by steven norquist

"its power: the animation of existence"
a person can live only so long in this dream before a nightmare must emerge...
once that nightmare emerges and dominates the field of consciousness the urge to awaken manifests
who am i? why am i here? is there a god?
as waking from a nightmare in sleep is when the dream world vanishes, waking from the nightmare of life is when the dreamer vanishes.
the dream (the world of transient experiences) never ends.  the fabric of reality does not dissolve, but the self vanishes.
the brilliance of the world (transient experience only available now) increases as the individual fades
all that makes you uniquely you fades
true nature of reality = no you
there was never an individual dreamer
the universe is empty of self
void of persons
silence=no self
there is only the spontaneous manifestation of life
yet nothing is random and all that emerges does so precisely and perfectly
this is only known in direct experience.  it is felt.
the hum of the machine, working endlessly, blindly and perfectly.
the substance of this emergence is consciousness
universe = consciousness
the barrier to ultimate truth is a personal desire for meaning or value
all that is (you are) that which moves = mindless + intentionless
lose the hope for affirmation of being
there, is the peace and release of the void
the suffering comes from the belief that there must be meaning or purpose to live.  love, success, hope, recognition.
there is no final feeling of freedom from delusion or freedom from suffering
singularity = black hole, irresistible void, abyss... central to all manifestation... the origin of all things
life does everything in its power to return to death
the instant the human ego tries to assert itself... the void opens... suffering, flames, destruction, annihilation, peace - in that order
you become the void, the emptiness
you are unable to 'buy in' or see meaning in anything
you become a flaming force searing meaning and ego and hope
the art of automation
a shell following its programming
the universe is in charge
this is the way it is
there is no need to change or be something other than what has always been
to see the centrality as void changes nothing
you has always been a mindless, soulless, animatronis character in disneyland with music and dancing and singing and flashing lights and absolutely no one ever in the park to see or experience it
...there has only ever been enlightenment
actionless, motionless, and as destructive as a 2 year old child
you are no longer constrained; you expand outwards and fill all that is